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v. valentine ([personal profile] lapses) wrote1992-05-28 05:11 pm

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but have you considered.... "yes"?

[personal profile] photog 2020-06-02 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[surely, if Prompto calls, Vincent will come roof spelunking from miles away. it's probably not the best thing in the world to reinforce with the blond, as this is a power no mere mortal should have in their possession. he'll have to use it seldom, an abuse of power like this can only end in tragedy. but for a moment, he's a little unsure. Prompto has crippling fears that people will eventually walk out of his life for something that he's said or done, or worse, for who, er- what- he actually is. maybe Vincent just wants nothing to do with him? he vanishes out of sight, and he thinks to himself: "that's completely fair," and thinks about descending the staircase back down and trying to find something more useful to do with his life on this lonely island.

and on his turn to go do exactly that, he's met with the same chilling scene of a man who can move without so much as a trace of the wind around him, and Prompt stumbles, vividly tripping over himself in the weird aftermath of being set upon by an IRL vampire. well, maybe not, but you can't convince him that the impression is necessarily wrong, either. once his heart stops racing out of his chest like an overexcited hummingbird, he gains composure and cool, watery blue eyes with peaks of violet crescents meet up with a pair of violently warm, and dangerous looking red. he almost can't believe he peed in front of this guy.]


Uh, h-hey. Nice of you to, uh, drop in? [oof size: big.] Can we work on, like, maybe not trying to make me go into coronary arrest next time?
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tough crowd

[personal profile] photog 2020-06-02 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[he always lets everything get to his head, that's, like, unavoidable. the only thing that can stop him is being so unbearably mean that it brings into question why someone would want to kick a puppy straight in the face like that.

but now that he's here, and completely ignoring the request to not startle him moving forward, he breathes outward, coming to his senses. as much as Vincent wants to know more, Prompto is in a perfectly primed position to pull back.]


Hey, so I might've said some really heavy stuff last night.

[like how he can't pee when other people are watching.]
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[personal profile] photog 2020-06-02 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ah, a perfect display of such qualities, right here.

the entire bottom half of Prompto's jaw becomes ajar, in that sort of "I'm wincing and in pain, please send help," sort of way. he was worried about this. not that there were memory lapses from overindulging on the vittles, but he wasn't sure he was ready to hear another human being (questionable) repeat those words out loud to him.]


Look, I, uh.

[he scratches the back of his head.]

I don't really tell people about that stuff. About me. It's hard enough to form decent relationships with people, never mind leading in with "hey, I'm actually a clone of an evil mad scientist, 'sup."
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[personal profile] photog 2020-06-02 05:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[imagine, being held accountable for doing dumb shit. Prompto's appalled that this has finally caught up to him!!!

the line of questioning that Vincent asks him though- it's peculiar. and not in the "let's sit down and have tea" sort of way. just a little... uncomfortable, honestly. there's so much that he doesn't know about himself, about the project. a lot of things died with his "father," Verstael.]


Uhm.

[he looks down at the floor of the roof, trying to dissect himself in a way that makes plausible sense. this really shouldn't, at all. he should never have been born.]

The soldiers that he created... they're meant to be empty vessels. It's honestly, kind of confusing to me, so I don't really know all the details, or even understand a lot of it myself.

But it's the other way around. The empire controls the person that's been contaminated. They inject material from the starscourge into an empty clone, turning them into a daemon... a monster, kinda. And then they're used to fight wars where no one on their side has to die.

[which is a harsh way of putting it- because even then, Prompto subconsciously admits that he was meant to be one of those "no ones" - barely even above board as far as humans are to be classified.]

But I'm one of the failures. Contaminated, but not daemonized.
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[personal profile] photog 2020-06-02 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I would've been.,,

[Prompto is, in fact, way too easy to trust other people. even if it ends up hurting him, he'd rather live this way than go back to the loneliness of his childhood. he's been told it before, but he can't change who he is at the core. he can just hope that people have, in the end, good intentions.

there were... some exceptions to the rule, though. and if Prompto's gut is saying not to engage with someone, that's usually a good sign not to.

and as for the blond himself, he looks rather uncomfortable with talking at all. at times, his body language is all off, unlike the night prior, when he was gregarious and free-spirited. he intermittently, and even without knowing it, keeps touching his wrist, where his fingers move along the lines of a barcode. limited edition, a joke. he had a serial number.]


But I was kidnapped as a baby by a Lucian spy. I grew up there, and... I guess that's all there is to it.
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[personal profile] photog 2020-06-03 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
[while Prompto didn't decide to burn down an entire village over it, he's pretty well adjusted, all things considered. if anything, he doesn't take to anger nearly as much as he diverts inward. he remembers being told what he was when he was young, his adoptive parents telling him to hide his barcode and explaining the situation. it just made him depressed, if anything. but he has good friends, and they've been more of his family than anyone else in the world has been to him. he will never be grateful enough to what they've given him.

he tilts his head, smiling softly in a way that betrays his better judgment. his childhood... it wasn't really that great, but he couldn't complain too much about it. he doesn't have much time to reply, either way, and he's kind of grateful for it. he had never really felt love from the couple who adopted him. it was almost a business transaction of sorts and they were never home, working in some official capacity for the Lucian government. mostly, his childhood was filled with learning how to cope with loneliness.]


I dunno. I never... really got the chance to find out. When me and my friends were separated, I wound up traveling to where I was born. [that's a weird concept.] I guess. Uh. I mean... you know what I mean. I found out there, but.

[he looks down at the ground. this is actually getting a little too hard to keep going like this, and he breathes outward, figuring this is probably good enough. right?]

I had to kill... my real father. Or, the guy I was cloned after. It's kinda hard to know... like, how. You... call it.
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[personal profile] photog 2020-06-03 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[he doesn't really know why he had kept on talking, but maybe it was one of those things that once he started, he couldn't really stop himself. there are so many horrible things attached to all of this, and it's festered within him... his entire life. maybe part of him wanted to reach out to someone, to hear someone say something reassuring about it. but wanting to be validated by other people, to prove his existence is real, is a pretty bad behavior, and he's caught in a cycle of wanting it and knowing it's wrong.

Prompto stands there, hearing Vincent admonish him, and honestly. his heart kind of sinks even deeper than it was before. he felt vulnerable in telling him to begin with, and he knows now, for sure, that he shouldn't have. which was why he came here, actually. to ask Vincent to keep whatever he told him close to heart, but when he asked questions, he talked himself into a corner, like he usually does.

but it affirms something his adopted parents had told him. keep it a secret. they probably knew how hard his life was going to be for it and only wanted him to have a chance at normalcy.

it's just. kind of hard to feel normal when you know you're empty.

he purses his lips, breathes into his mouth to let his cheeks expand, and exhales.]


Sorry. [it's not a defensive sounding apology that comes out of his mouth, but rather, regret.] I, uh. Yeah, you're right.

Just... don't know how to keep my mouth shut sometimes. But s'all good. I'll just. Hah, you know. Lock it up. [he motions and mimics like he's turning a key over his mouth.]

So, we're cool. I was gonna ask you maybe... if you could not tell anyone, but I don't think I really gotta ask that, and. Uh. I'll just. Catch ya round, yeah?
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[personal profile] photog 2020-06-03 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[he wanted to peace out of this conversation, needing a few minutes to reassemble himself. trust is such a weird concept for Prompto. having no friends growing up, and then becoming the closest person to his country's prince, and going on a road trip with them to take him to meet his fiance... he doesn't want to think he's naive, but in some ways he definitely is. he knows how the world works, he knows that there's darkness lurking out there everywhere you look. but he tries to see the light and earnestly believes that people aren't wired to try and fuck others over.

Vincent definitely has a good point, overall. it's good to be weary of others and guarded with things that can be used to twist you. but the opposite is true, too. it's not good to be so distanced from other people that you can't really express how you feel. he looks down at the ground, as Vincent talks. two opposing people, at the core of things, shaped by their life experiences.

but he didn't expect this. Vincent Valentine is filled with surprises, and even though he doesn't know his name at all, he's one of the most intriguing people to figure out that he's met here. as he sees him struggle to get the words out, even though they're stilted, he takes it to heart just as strongly as he did the scolding.

admittedly, there's not a lot of things he can be sure about in this world. but he has some confidence in knowing the person in front of him doesn't want to see something bad to happen to him.

he takes a moment, the fight or flight response dying down a little as he realigns.]


I... [what's left to say, really?]

It is kinda hard. I've never really had a lot of people in my life that I could talk to that stuff about. I just.


I'll do better, in the future. I promise.

[he looks up and over at Vincent, who had just postured a speech about opening up to people while practically talking to his hand.

and then, in a somewhat smaller voice, tentative and unknowing.]


Thanks. For keeping my secret safe and. For being a person that won't hurt me because of it.